Guess there is some something in the air or maybe space( planetary influence?), I have been reading too many things written by different people about Relationships. That is to be expected I guess, Life is mostly about Relationships. If its not with people, its with our surroundings.
I would love for the relationships I really enjoy to be a constant. I dont mean everything about the relationship to stay constant, I want flexibility within the relationship to be a constant.. does that sound like an oxymoron- A Constant Flexibility? The kind of flexibility that allows us to change while still holding, as we know more about ourselves and others around us.
One relationship that has changed and I cant do much about it(cause it requires this huge effort I am unwilling to put) is that which I share with myself. Yes it does seem odd, but I never claimed to be the most "Normal"(if there is such a thing) person. Over time, I notice things that have changed within me, some of them really good changes(holding my tongue/thought for instance) and some not so good changes(my relationship with exercise for instance). Now, I dont mind the changes for the most part, I am just making observations. The one constant that has been is giggling, I used to tickle very easily as schoolgirl and as college girl and well, that hasnt changed. I am a giggly person. I am amused very easily... Guess I should be glad for the blessing.
The One relationship, I dread changing is the one I share with my kids. I am right now their Mother, their guide, their Drill Sergeant, their Safest Guard, their firmest rock, their chest of hugs and kisses, their silly clown at times... and I know its not going to last long. Over the coming years, the only constant will be, that I am their Mother. Everything else might change. On one hand I am glad that they will grow up, find their own niches in life, live up to their potential(hopefully) and fulfill their destiny.. I am also very grateful that of all the people they could have been kids to, they chose us(my husband and I) to come through.
I know, as they grow up there will be things that we may not see eye to eye on, but I am keeping my fingers crossed that they will make wise choices. Hopefully they will be choices that they can live with. I know that they may not want to confide stuff with us like they do now, so I am hoping I can teach them to make and keep trustworthy friends. I dont know what changes in ethics and values will happen in their time, but I am hoping that no matter what the changes around them, they will always be true to themselves and be able to look into their own eyes in the mirror. Most of all I am hoping that they understand that being happy has nothing to do with how much money or the accolades they get from those around them, but in being able to understand that they have all that they need within themselves.
Some part of my brain says all this could be an illusion, but I love this illusion, so I am keeping it. Hoping this hope of mine comes true and Holds Constant.
With my head in the clouds and feet on the ground,
Pondering as Usual
Mithuna aka Mindsnomad.
