Your Leaving

It is eighteen months, since your leaving
Eighteen months, in unseen mourning
I eat, drink, work, sleep and  wake
Keeping the pretence of a serene lake.

I refuse to cry
I know not why
Lacking courage, to ever pry.

Walking in silence outside the door
Afraid to delve into the core
Shunning thoughts that crave my voice
Watching emotions that refuse my choice.

I wait for release
Bound by time's lease
Knowing you will always be, my memories.

To Have and To Hold

Tears threaten to fall
Everytime I see you
If there was a Having
I couldnt have You.
If there was a Staying
I couldnt stay by You.
If there was a Holding
I couldnt hold on to You.
I think of  what it could have been
If I Had, Stayed and Held on to you
Would you have remained the You
You were when I first saw You?
And Tears threaten to fall.

Missing You

Of all the names, I have heard
Yours is the sweetest song,
I know not the reason
For the way I feel about you
Maybe its the way you make me feel
When I am around you.
Or Maybe it’s the way you feel about me
When you are with me,
Remember you, I do, with all of my soul.
In all the time that we have spoken,
I gave you a part of me, I never knew I had
To you, who came into my heart quietly
And left even more quietly than quietness herself.
I miss you, more than anyone I have missed
So much, that I am afraid to say your name again.

-K P Rashmi