Being to just be, without the need to please you or me. That is what I have wanted for a long time. I try not to chase it, cause the chase will never end, I have noticed so. I am not a jealous person, at least, I like to believe so. But there is a particular breed of people I am very jealous of. The ones who dont question anything, who can take what ever comes their way and be fine with it, who dont want answers to anything... I try to imagine how quiet their minds must be, cause I crave it, My mind doesnt understand SHUT UP. I am envious.
In our world of Information Bombing, I need the quiet. I need to retreat, somewhere inside the quiet of my being. I notice people using the words Knowledge and Power so casually. They say Information is Power, they use the words Information and Knowledge interchangably, to mean having information in the present. Thats all it means, to use it instantly in the now for an instant result. I watch and I feel, that is not what it was intended for. Of course, each of us will have the meaning of life as we want to mean it. Somewhere in my inner recess of what could be the Mind, Knowledge means much more, and Power, isnt the Power we perceive right now. Knowledge results in Joy and that joy is not derived from using the knowledge to manipulate or put down or show the place to the other but Joy for the knowing of our place and an understanding of how we manipulate ourselves into feeling powerless. Power isnt when you can Compel others to do your bidding, but when the other volunteers to do without your bidding. This happens when they sense your Truth and for that truth to emanate from you, you need to be immersed in truth completely, Body, Mind and Soul.
I am stuck at that thing called Truth. Have been stuck here for a really long time and beginning to get very restless. I have heard and seen as much as my life's choices has allowed me so far. Yet, Truth is Elusive. Truth isnt True nor is it False. There really isnt any proof of it except for what each of us percieve it to be. Truth according to the Dictionary is what is ACCEPTED as True and there isnt ONE definition to it. They say there is Truth in Religions, I like to believe so but I see the effects of Religion on everyday life and wonder what kind of Truth creates Wars or Hunger or Criminals. They say there is Truth in ourselves, I believe that a little more than I believe the Religious Truth cause yes there are moments I can say "That was the Truth" and know that it doesnt mean its the Truth to the one who is Listening. There is Truth in Science and Math that I want to differentiate with the word Emperical. And the Word Emperical doesnt just mean ONE thing. The Dictionary gives the definition of Emperical from the Philosophical point of view as something that our senses experience. And that becomes Subjective not something that can be proved. So what on earth is TRUTH?
This is one of those times I hate the idea of Language, it leaves much to be desired. The only conclusion I have got to so far is that there is no Absolute Truth. I understand why Philosophers appear vague in their philosophies. Maybe that is why we need analogies. I also notice that not everyone understands Analogies especially if it is not something they have experienced. Maybe that is why we need Fables, Legends, Myths and Stories that dont make sense in our present. Somewhere in all that is Written in History and in all that we Know we know and we Know we dont know, maybe there is Truth. Or maybe, just Maybe, Truth is a grand illusion we like to run after, maybe running after it feeds our self-importance. Whatever the reasons for wanting the Truth, I dont see it right now... Some day I hope to and hopefully it will be before I leave this earthly abode. And Hopefully, I will live long enough to share it, should I find it.
Until then, Being so I can just BE, without the need to please you or me, is the Truth that will be Mine.
Wishing you all a Happy Sunday, while watching my mind's endless Ramble.
Peace
Rashmi.
13 comments:
In no way are you a jealous person I understand you well by that way that you write. Yes as so often we do. But for me, I love not being to self serving but the experience of what other say Rashmi. It really of value. Why do we need? When really we have the answers right in from of us.
I am a moderate and yet I have been asked so much with regards to my faith - and I think that it all comes out within the writes as ironically I can literally relate to each an every word that you write.
Everyone that can realize the need to retreat and the time to oneself is on that truly is within that area of Karma. And with that said - you know, I know all know...as within the knowing is really were it all stands. People can actually communicate without the need to write - as there is that thing within spanish it's called " Yo Se" and within the english it's does not really capture the same meaning yet some do understand it....
Bidding you a great Sunday...
Peace and love, Rashmi!
I loved your ramble!
Oh Rashmi... You find my inner heart.. the one that searches, too.. You utter my words... This is the time of the Heart... and anyone who is in such quandries as this... you and I, among the masses shifting , find ourselves almost broken with the weight of our journey to understand truth....The world is searching for truth... but it doesn't make it any easier for us. We are still on a lonely journey... since it is a personal journey....all looking for something to bring peace to the Heart.... I do believe there is only one truth... and that is Love... but then ... how do we understand what that means? it has been stripped of its essence in the human thinking brain.. and we wander through thought after thought trying to find it..see what it looks like, and manifest within ourselves the essences of truth... Looking for love in all the wrong places... Like a maze, it haunts, taunts and confuses us... Find Love and find Truth... simple... NOT !!
For many Love is a nightmare..the place we can't stand looking at.. because it means we have to face ourselves and admit we are Love... that is very hard to do...if not impossible in human terms.... Love... If I could possibly describe the revelation.. it would be to face total darkness and be able to see Love.
I just finished of with tending to my father as well as my own areas within this accident that I had and some are in vain and some are not.....I certainly do know what you mean as at lunch time I have just arrived home.
My inner spirit does get tossed now and then - with the encounters of so much that I do have to tend to while taking care of my own self - and graduating it. If I may I don't think many would understand you - only those that have really come to understand more that just one area.
Your friend....
I dont really know if things are shifting or its because its colder and I am more at home and so have time to notice the change. I figure they are for the best or at least they are to be so.
And LOVE, the less said the better. I was right in my first conclusion of it, the more we talk of it the less we feel/experience it ;).
Taking care of ourselves should be a priority if we intend functioning optimally in our lives.
Understanding only comes from Experience or Observation and its not a viable past-time for many of us, given the busy-ness of our lives.
Yes I know when it comes to family and cancer - I have done it for so long that it's one that I do desire that I would have a few other members of the family help out. As I am on my own road to recovery.
Just my own thoughts...
Being a sole caregiver is an overwhelming place to be. Is it cause there is no family near by? If so are there other options like hiring someone for the time you are recovering. *Doffs the hat* to you. I wish you a speedy recovery.
That all comes into place hopefully this week. As I love them but one has to tend to themselves as well. I really have things coming up and I heal while I do write and I have been their sole caregiver. And that is a very big task - I don't mean it within a complaint.
It just one in which I have to tend to my own recovery after this accident - as I have been doing.
It gives much way to this thought of "Acceptance is the Key".
A realistic idealist...
Well said!
Came back to this and my you are a very good writer and how I understand this so well.
Thank you Kindly :).
I love the area of truth yet it's so hard to write on all the areas that are within what we know as validity.
Your welcome.
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