Crushes, Rambles and Tuesdays.

Tuesday is almost done. I don't have 10 thoughts, cause I feel like I am drunk and so coherence is not a word in my vocabulary.  So its a Tuesday Ramble.

I was at the library and happened upon the  classic Literature aisle. Took me down memory lane to my struggle with English Lit. class, days.  Enjoyed looking at the shelves with Shakespeare's King Lear, who in my eyes, was more a common man than King, especially when he didn't really see past the superficiality into the character of his daughters. Shouldn't a King  be adept at being able to discern anothers character?  And Dear Hamlet,  I was in love with that mad man.. I am mighty amused every time I go back to my younger self and see that I have had crushes over fictional characters or characters I have never met in real life.  I loved Hamlet's, I am sane yet insane take on life.  Ok, he was wronged, but if all he wanted to do was avenge his Father's death and his own loss of power, he should have done just that but no!! he had to give me Grief in my lit class trying to figure out his cruelty to the ones he loved.  I guess if he got past that, there would be no Drama.  He was for ever stuck in his "To be or not to Be", the silly Man and got so many killed around him.  Coming to think of it, most of History has Kings whose ascent to the crown are drenched in Blood.. Power sure does come at a Price. And there was Othello, oh lordy! he was a hoot. Thanks to him, I learned early in life, what kind of a spouse I didn't want.   I didn't see Romeo and Juliet or Julius Caesar, I loved Anthony's speech after Caesar is assassinated.  I wonder what inspired Shakespeare to write such words.. wonder if I could borrow his muse for a while.

Fall seems to have become a season to Fall.. I mean, to Fall sick.   I am craving warmth of the sun and its not winter yet.  Most of my son's classmates where missing last week.  They had their field trip cancelled due to "too many students being absent".   I hope they all get well and get back to the business of learning.

I watched a Mongolian Movie.. Mongol..its about the life of Genghis Khan, until the time he became Genghis Khan.   What led him to become who he became.  Again I was suddenly paying attention to the Price of power. I guess I know I don't have that kind of courage. I don't think I can let go of the ones I love or maybe I can, after all I haven't been driven to it like He was in the Movie.  I enjoyed the way the story was told.  There is something about watching someone from an era before yours suffer, that makes you very aware of how blessed we are.  The Photography is wonderful, the steppes are desolate yet very beautiful.  Most of this movie was filmed in Mongolia and Kazakhstan  Life in Mongolia was really tough, but then I guess, so was life in other parts of the world.  I don't think I can really go back to a simpler yet Hardworking time and enjoy life, now that I have got the taste of Internet and other modern amenities.  They say you should not let your dog taste your blood, for it will crave more.  On the other hand I guess, we can get used to anything, so maybe I could re-adjust to a life with none of the amenities and survive.  I want to watch Red Cliff next.. Lets see how life over the weekend is.

I read about the Terrorists Killing in Pakistan, I guess, the end is not near, we should be careful when we sharpen a Knife(that's what they did when they gave a safe haven for the Taliban).  The Afghan Elections are done and I have no idea why I am not satisfied with it. Why is it that I feel, more are going to die there, a sense of foreboding.  I see pictures of refugee towns, people suffering with starvation and illness along the borders,  in my minds eye. It also brings to mind a Movie I saw a couple of years ago, Beyond Borders- about refugees due to famine and wars in Africa and in other places around the world... Such a scary prospect, yet we don't learn from past errors.
 
Did grocery shopping today, cause I didn't get out of the house over the weekend, I just wanted to hibernate.  I saw a citrus fruit/vege that they call Buddha's fingers and I had to suppress a giggle.

Seriously, if Buddha had fingers like those, I wouldn't want to be touched.  Guess that is me Discriminating. I also saw something called Dragon Fruit.. It looked like a red Sago root to me. Thats the picture of Dragon Fruit.  Both pictures arent my own, I did take it from the web images.  I love going to the Asian Market here, I see things I would not have ever seen in my birth city of Bangalore and somehow that makes me Smile.. weird eh?

I think I am having too much time on hand, I seem to love doing Blog quizzes. I posted some that have been going around on multiply.. Its fun. 

I haven't done yoga/pranayama(Ironical, no matter how much time I have, I somehow dont seem to have time for this..hmmm) this past week cause I couldn't get myself to wake early enough to get my 1 hour before the house wakes. Arrgghh!! I hate Dark Mornings.

I love my family back home, but my mother's passing has brought out a lot of unresolved issues with the remaining members and I am trying hard not to get dragged into Drama, so I haven't spoken to my dad this past week, cause calling him means I get to know who said what and the general irritations that I think they should deal with themselves cause I really cant get anyone to listen to what I think is Common Sense.  They are old enough to look after themselves Right? so I am going to leave them to their own devices.  I cant be my Mother, the Saintly Female version of Henry Kissinger.

My plants are shedding leaves. This happens every year, yet I feel a sense of  misery when I see them bare.  I know that means new work with seeds and soil, something I seem to like, yet there is a sense of sadness too...I donut like goodbyes, I think I should not Name things or call them by their names like My chili plant, My tomato plant etc. etc., cause when you Name them, you Claim them for your own and when you lose them you feel misery. (Note to self - Let it be, accept the leaving and the coming in your life.)

I was annoyed today and it was really a trivial reason now that I think of it, guess sometimes I can lose my cool.  I didn't do anything drastic but I really wanted to Punch someone in their face. yay! me for restraint or should I say, HAH! Loser, cant really do what you think now can you? Never Mind..

The winds are picking up outside, the chimes are ringing really loud, guess its going to be chilly tonight.

Will stop for now and get the rest of my day in order

Peace
Rashmi.