1. Its the first day of school. Just dropped off the children and enjoying my cuppa, before chore time. I think my son is kind of anxious 'cause he complained of a stomache ache this morning.
2. I was reading Dr. Giles's TTT on Educating our children this morning and I had a flood of thoughts that I couldnt think coherently. I feel like there's so much I have to say but at the back of my mind there is also this thought, that no matter how much I think things should change, the system we are in isnt ready for a change right now.
3. I find myself having a split personality, a part of me is very content with the way life is, while the other asks "Is this all to life?". It is very annoying to smile in between a sigh.
4. The house is too quiet....
5. I watched a Bangladeshi movie "Brick Lane". It was an alright movie. I related to it more than my husband did cause it speaks from a Bangladeshi wife's point of view. It felt like a story from Arranged Marriage by Chitra Divakaruni. There were a few scenes that felt like it was taken from my life - The lady, Nazneem, looking out the window, thats the only world view she has once she comes to her Husband's home in London...that used to be me, when I came here. - Nazneem's friendship with a neighbour who was different but acknowledged her existence... that was my neighbour too, the kindly Chinese lady(we never knew each others names) who was the only one who smiled and spoke to me without a reason, in broken english everytime we met in the hallway. The other character that added spice to the otherwise bland household was Karim, the delivery man she ends up loving inspite of being married. I think it was more an awakening to a Passion she didnt not think herself capable of having. Then 9/11 happens and in one of the community meetings, her husband ends up on the Moderate side while Karim on the militant side. I liked the question asked by her husband.. paraphrasing- "Brothers? What brothers? Have you forgotten what happened when our Country was formed? It was the same brother killing another brother." I gave it a 6/10.
6. I finished reading another Paulo Ceolho "By the river Piedra, I sat down and wept". I got this book while I was in India, only because I thought, I needed something to read on the Plane back home. It had his trade mark concepts - the conflict between Love and Spirituality, Journeys made to distant places and trying to answer the question what Romantic Love really entails? In all my life, ok that is an exaggeration, it should be since my Teens, I have been asking the question What It really Entails... and have seen, it changes with time; with our growth and the space we occupy and relate to in our world..but I have never come to a conclusion or definition. It is the most insensible emotion,(dont I sound like Mr. Spock from Star Trek?) yet everything we do seems to revolve around it. In my experience of romantic love, there is nothing that is set in stone. I must be insane to want it still.
7. My mother's birthday is on 12th...
8. I think I am growing lazy or completely disoriented since the 7 week vacation in India, I cant seem to get back to routine..The first two weeks after our arrival, I slept and slept and slept. Now, this past week I have been waking at all odd hours and listen to the house. I woke around 3 am this morning although I turned in at about 11 pm, last night. Hopefully the beginning of school will help me get back.
9. It is Corn(not the sweet one) season in India, and I miss eating roasted Corn Indian style. Maybe I should look around for corn that isnt sweet.
10. I have to finish reading two books I got on my friends recommendation "The Law of Attraction" and "The Five Love Languages of Children". Thats going to keep me busy.
9 comments:
I am interested to know how / what is "The Law of Attraction".
And I think there is more to life. If you can, you should take a job. A writing job. You will love it.
Don't be too hard on yourself, you will get back to your routine...
We all have our moments, nobody is perfect all the time..and this is just fine!
What love really entails..thats a big question and maybe we wont find the answer to it, but in the meanwhile we can simply love..be the love.
I love reading your thoughts ...and totally understand about the split personality....one side of the brain says one thing while the other says something else...we want what is best for our children and it is so frustrating when we don't think they are getting it...
Simona, its quite interesting although its old rules in a new package. I just got to the 50 page today..maybe I will do a write up on it.
Writing as a job, I should think on those lines. :)(hugs)
Thank you sis..:). yes, we can be the love.
For now, I trust what my husband said "People who want to learn will learn no matter how bad the educational system is... learning has to be done for Joy"
Thanks for reminding me of Brick Lane, I didn't think I'd seen it when you first were talking of it, but my memory can be atrocious and then it came back, what a great film it was, observing Karim, who if one loves one wants to be as perfect as can be, getting carried away by fundamentalist rage and the great speech the husband made at the meeting. One can enjoy the passionate but they are extreme in more areas than love and one has to let go and recognise the value of the ones not so loud. I can't remember how the film ended but I recall that was a great moment when the husband stood up in that meeting.
The husband leaves for Bangladesh and Nazneem lives in London with her Children. That speech was a Good one by the husband. It was the only time he ever Stood Up for something he believed in that entire story.
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