Monday’s Morsel.
I haven’t been blogging as much as I would like to. Every time I sit down to write, something comes along to interrupt the train of my thoughts. Sometimes I write only to realize, that it isn’t as positive as I wanted it to be, and I don’t want to be a party to spreading negativity. I don’t seem to have much luck when it comes to not allowing things to derail my thoughts. But I felt like I owe you all an apology for not being here and an update on what’s happening in my life.
1. Daughter being in Middle school has completely thrown off my routine…Now I have a new normal for routine.
2. I used to work part time two days a week and I had a lot of time to do what I enjoyed, now, its become 4 days.
3. 1 & 2 together, eats into my free time leaving hardly any time to breathe…Now I have 200% respect for the women who work all the days of the week, maintain homes and families and are on call most times. A 100 bows to them. Do tell me the secret of your smiles.
4. I am still reeling from some relationship revelations I had from family last year. I have a new normal in this aspect too.
5. Yesterday was a really nice sunny day and we went zip lining. Boy! I felt like a complete Klutz but I came off with some character insights into myself. A)I don’t have the guts to commit suicide ever, cause I have a very high sense of self-preservation. For all my lack of fear of heights I couldn’t step off the platform to zip, though I was way up high, on the tree, enjoying the view but nope! Had a hard time taking that first jump of the platform. B)I am not afraid of dying as I am of getting hurt or being incapacitated(I knew this rationally, yesterday I got confirmation from that irrational part of me too). C)I don’t have much upper arm strength, I couldn’t climb the 20 foot wall for the rock climbing. I gave up 3/4th of the way cause my shoulder hurt like someone tore it off. And now I have bragging rights, YES!! I did the zip line. I walked the High rope walk too. Although I was frightened when I had to do the single line ropewalk.
6. My flowers in the planters have begun to bud and it makes me smile every time I look at them.
7. We watched the super moon rise on Saturday and for a while all of us were so quiet with awe that I truly heard our family’s heart beat as one. Yes! It was my Joy.
8. My job as a pre-school teacher is so rewarding. Yes I come back home wanting quiet from all the noise I was in, but its worth it when I see the Look of pure unadulterated happiness on the children’s face when they are able to do things on their own or understand things they didn’t previously… They are my teachers in actuality. They teach me to hold without holding. Thank you Kiddos!
9. It seems like I enjoy having unfinished projects on hand. I still have things to do that keep staring at me but I cant seem to finish them. A major character flaw.
10. Today is another sunny day. I hope to accomplish most of my chores that have taken back seat over the last work week. Wish me luck.
11. I wanted to Thank you! My dear friends for being so giving of your words and thoughts through your writing and pictures…You show me paths where I didn’t see them before. Thank you for your kind comments and inputs too.
12. Today is my day off, so I had to do some justice to writing and posting here I am.
13. Have a wonderful work week. Remember to smile through your day and Breathe every time you think you don’t have time to breathe.
Yours Affectionately
Rashmi.
